I love black and white photographs. They are nostalgic, poetic and dramatic. I am going to take more black & white photographs in 2019. I feel that black and white photography allows you look directly at the focus of the image. It makes you 'feel' the image emotionally. I look forward to sharing some of them here with you in the new year.
Do something you enjoy. Learn something . Try something new. Form a new habit. Discard the negativity and live your best life. These are what I strive for more of, in 2019.
Cheers to you!
B.
Bermudiana Flower
Bermudiana Flower
Sunday 23 December 2018
Monday 17 December 2018
Nearing the End of 2018
It has been a full, jam-packed, roller coaster ride of a year for sure! I have not kept up in doing what I love, have found little time to do more things I enjoy, yet I've still allowed some negativity in my life to which I am going to make a better effort change in 2019.
While I cannot change others, I can change myself, my choices, my decisions, my actions and reactions. Hence, I look forward to a better and much happier, more successful 2019.
This year had it's ups and downs, like most, so it's always a challenge to stay on the happy side of things. My 2019 goal will be to embrace more positiveness and creativity, have more gratitude and give more when and how I can without it taking a toll on me.
Cheers to a year almost behind, survival and to new beginnings each and every day!
Seasons' greetings to all and I wish everyone forgiveness, love, peace and happiness.
B.
While I cannot change others, I can change myself, my choices, my decisions, my actions and reactions. Hence, I look forward to a better and much happier, more successful 2019.
This year had it's ups and downs, like most, so it's always a challenge to stay on the happy side of things. My 2019 goal will be to embrace more positiveness and creativity, have more gratitude and give more when and how I can without it taking a toll on me.
Cheers to a year almost behind, survival and to new beginnings each and every day!
Seasons' greetings to all and I wish everyone forgiveness, love, peace and happiness.
B.
Sunday 29 July 2018
Listening
A few times during my day, I take a few deep breaths in through my nose, and breathe out slowly through my mouth. Doing what I call controlled breathing for mind relaxation. Then, I sit (or stand, or lay) quietly with my eyes closed. For 15 seconds or 30 seconds, perhaps even a minute, breathing slowly and quietly. I take this time to pause, quiet my mind and just listen.
I try to notice what I hear. I don't think of things on my to-do list, or what I have to accomplish next, or what I'm having for dinner, or who I need to call. I just listen to find out what I can hear.
listen...
Sometimes I hear a cat meow, a dog bark or a bird whistle. I smile. Sometimes I hear the fan pushing the air above me, or the motor running in the air condition unit. Sometimes I hear a clock ticking. I smile. I also feel the beat of my heart, which is slowing down, as I become more relaxed.
Maybe I hear a distant sound of a car pass by or a toot of a horn. I may hear the wind pick up and shake the leaves on the trees. I may hear someone talking outside somewhere. I don't want to know what they are saying, I ignore it and move on to what else I can hear.
It's quite inspiring just to take those short moments in time to just listen and not think or speak. When I'm done from what I call a "mini mind vacation", I bring myself back to the present and open my eyes, usually always smiling at the peaceful moment I just experienced, and get back to what I was doing beforehand. Life just is a little bit better and easier when I can move on with a fresh mind.
Each night before bed, if I heard something of interest that made me smile more, in particular, I will write it in my notebook for my future self to read when I'm older, to remind me of good times.
Why don't you try it. It can possibly give you a smile and it doesn't cost anything.
Cheers! B.
Wednesday 18 July 2018
Cars & Raffle Tickets
Our 2nd-hand 18-year old car has had its share of knocks since we've owned in these last 2 years.
We had a taxi strike the passenger door (behind the driver's seat) while it was parked in a parking bay and the taxi was reversing without looking at my car, causing it damage so that it's difficult to open and close properly. We watched it happen and shouted out but he didn't hear us and struck it pretty bad. It is difficult to open and shut and all bent. He gave us $500 to repair it, but we are waiting closer to when we have to pass the car inspection to fix it, so if anything else happens, at least when we have it inspected, it's not damaged AGAIN.
After this, we had a car strike the driver's side door while it was open and Chris was taking things out of the car to be put in the Govt dumpster drop off. The car behind our car pulled around us, impatient, and struck the driver's door and damaged it - crumpled it fairly good. He blamed us but we were not in the wrong. We were off-loading in the space we are supposed to off-load and he didn't pull out far enough to not hit the door. He should have waited but in his haste, he struck it and banged it up a bit. He refused to pay for it and so we have to take him to court and find the cost of all that is not worth the cost of the damage, so we were unlucky this time to get compensation.
In addition to this, the car needs new shocks, a new clutch, has an oil leak, has a break fluid leak, has a water reservoir leak, needs a wheel alignment (we go through 2 tires each month) and we just got new breaks put in earlier this month because they failed and ended up being completely destroyed when they replaced them - this was another $500 bill. Then, all of a sudden, our auto control to put the front door passenger window up doesn't work so we have that issue as well. And, to top it off, when it rains, the car sputters, hiccups and stalls so we have some weird issue going on there, too. Good Grief.
On Saturday, while driving the car, something flew up (a rock?) and struck the front windscreen while I was driving the car. Another vehicle passing me by must have kicked up a rock with its tire and it struck my windscreen putting a deep gash and scrapes in it. By Sunday afternoon the windscreen was cracked 8" and heading toward the top - where it would eventually shatter. We booked the car in to fix the windscreen today and was estimated to pay approx $700 for the replacement and labour. When they took the windshield off they called and said there was a bit of rust and that it would cost $1,200 more to fix that and they'd have to keep the car for a few days. I need the car daily to move from client to client so Chris told them just to replace the windscreen and we'll sort out the rust another time when we can plan to live without the car for a few days. Plus, we aren't financially prepared to pay for this at this time.
This afternoon, Chris received a really nice phone call. We purchased a $100 raffle ticket from a charity business about 6 weeks ago for a draw in August of 2 cars. We did so because we really need a new car. Chris put the ticket in his name with his phone number. This is the 3rd year we've bought a ticket for this raffle for a car. Each year, the charity pulls a ticket out from all ticket purchasers, and gives away a "free" raffle ticket for the same draw. So Chris' ticket got pulled for a free raffle ticket for this draw. He went in and picked one from the bunch they had, and that ticket, along with his ticket, went back in the drum for the draw in August. This is great new! We truly hope that we win one of these 2 new cars. We really, really, really do need a new car.
So I end this note, that I wish to win a new car in August.
Cheers, B.
| Raffle ticket showing the 2 Mazda CX3 cars for the August raffle draw |
Saturday 14 July 2018
Dinner-Hopping
| Cheese platter Appetizer and Prosecco starter |
| Pool side snacks - cheese & crackers, chips ^ dip, prosecco |
We ordered a prosecco bubbly and the cheese platter, and pulled pork tacos (2 came in one plate). There was plenty of food for us for these shared appetizers and everything was delicious that we were surprisingly pleased as it was our first time visiting that restaurant.
We then had pasta for our main meal, along with another glass of prosecco. We both decided to order something from the menu we had not had before, so she had the manicotti and I had the ravioli bolognese.
Needless to say we ate it all. We stopped at Henry VIII on the way home (we close a minute apart) and had a Royal Mimosa (it's made with Prosecco) and that is what we said was our "dessert".
We are home and in bed by midnight and really enjoyed our dinner-hopping! Was a lot of fun and we said we'll do it again soon at other restaurants, but start an hour earlier next time so we can fit it all it. LOL
Today, we had a swim in a pool where I'm house sitting but not spending the night (I was offered to use the pool when I visit). I did my duties, we took some cheese, crackers, chips and dip with us and a bottle of prosecco and spent almost 2 hours in the pool enjoying our chat and snacks. It was a beautiful view and so relaxing. It felt like we were on a mini vacation.
We both enjoyed a wonderful weekend.
Sunday 8 July 2018
Books, Random Conversation & The Universe
In my life, I find many random things happen, but they are not so random at all. I find that I want or need something, I say it, I wish it, I live it, and I put it out there in the universe and somehow things just happen to fall into my path at some point in the future relating to that random thing.
This happens often in my life, so I must keep a record for my own sanity to make sure it's real! LOL
Let's begin with the current. Most recently (not my whole list), I've been looking at (wanting and needing) a massage chair, a couch for my office, big screen TVs (for outdoor and indoor), an outdoor pool/table tennis table and big screen to watch movies at night outdoors, outdoor furniture, a new car, a new colour laser printer, more clients (and help them all to be even more successful), to increase my income, a hot tub, an above-ground pool, to put a porch and verandah around the whole of my house, to put in 2 doors where we have 2 windows for outdoor access, to add on my house, to upgrade my 2 bathrooms, to refloor my house, to own a bigger boat, an internal sound system for the whole house, put in a solar hot water heater unit, an underwater camera, a video camera, to take a course on watch/strap/clock making and repair, a sit-on lawn mower, fruit trees, rose trees, buy some new bras & panties, shoes, and clothes (when I lose weight), to lose weight, to have regular facials and massages, to have some memberships at a couple hotels, to open a new (successful) charity, to own a few small (successful) businesses, to be financially free, to write and become a (successful) published author of many works, to travel, to go to NY for the day, to interview locals and share their stories, and befriend some quality famous people, to make a lot of new and interesting, real good friends, to be able to give more and help others more, to be able to do more for my son and Chris (the two most special people in my life), to spend more quality time with my loved ones and pets, to create and sell my artwork, to read more, to enjoy holidays more and decorate and entertain better, to collect a great library of wonderful books, and I want to be a mobile, older lady when I grow old, and still have my marbles, and enjoy life, and get out and about with little difficulty, and live to be a good old age and not be a burden at the same time... okay, so that's my current list. Believe me, there's more, but let's start here.
My list if probably very similar to others like me. My list maybe a great deal more than those who are not as fortunate as I am, and believe me, I am not rich at all - I live month-to-month just like most people in my circle. I want to change that, too, for the better.
So, recently, I bought a raffle ticket for $100 for a possibility to win one of 2 new cars, out of 3,000 tickets being sold - draw is in August. I hope I win one of these 2 cars! I really need it.
My son's watch strap broke at work and he bought it home, needing repair. WOW - okay, I may not get the course in before it needs repairing, but how random - I will be able to repair it in the future (hopefully) if another one breaks.
I was asked last week if I could do the work and books for a very small business - I'm not sure if I overpriced it (don't believe I did), but we'll see if it becomes a new client next week.
I just purchased 28 books from a charity store, for $28 - all classics to read and keep on my book shelves that I am putting up in my office (one up, 2 more to go)! I'm so excited. A few months ago I wanted to join an online book club while reading Frankenstein by Mary Shelley but I found it difficult to keep up with work and my own personal life goings on, that I didn't get far with it at all. Then I decided to download a copy of the book, found one and find it difficult to read on my phone and my Amazon Fire, so I gave that up, as well, with the hopes to get back to it someday. And on the bookshelves, I found the book! Of course, I purchased it. It was only $1.00 and it's called Of Human Bondage. I can't wait to read the book in bed - it will be my next book to read once I finish the one I'm currently reading (and just started). While I was in line to pay for my load of books, an older lady started asking me if I had read Somerset Maugham - which I had not heard of him. She said one of his books was on the book shelf and suggested that I should buy it and read it. She said she lives in England and has all of his books and loves them, and that she looked him up and found out some interesting things about him and that I should read the book and then do the same - look him up and find out a bit about his life. I said I would. She said his books have become movies, and that she hopes (and believes) I will enjoy his books. What a really random and pleasant conversation.
This happens often in my life, so I must keep a record for my own sanity to make sure it's real! LOL
Let's begin with the current. Most recently (not my whole list), I've been looking at (wanting and needing) a massage chair, a couch for my office, big screen TVs (for outdoor and indoor), an outdoor pool/table tennis table and big screen to watch movies at night outdoors, outdoor furniture, a new car, a new colour laser printer, more clients (and help them all to be even more successful), to increase my income, a hot tub, an above-ground pool, to put a porch and verandah around the whole of my house, to put in 2 doors where we have 2 windows for outdoor access, to add on my house, to upgrade my 2 bathrooms, to refloor my house, to own a bigger boat, an internal sound system for the whole house, put in a solar hot water heater unit, an underwater camera, a video camera, to take a course on watch/strap/clock making and repair, a sit-on lawn mower, fruit trees, rose trees, buy some new bras & panties, shoes, and clothes (when I lose weight), to lose weight, to have regular facials and massages, to have some memberships at a couple hotels, to open a new (successful) charity, to own a few small (successful) businesses, to be financially free, to write and become a (successful) published author of many works, to travel, to go to NY for the day, to interview locals and share their stories, and befriend some quality famous people, to make a lot of new and interesting, real good friends, to be able to give more and help others more, to be able to do more for my son and Chris (the two most special people in my life), to spend more quality time with my loved ones and pets, to create and sell my artwork, to read more, to enjoy holidays more and decorate and entertain better, to collect a great library of wonderful books, and I want to be a mobile, older lady when I grow old, and still have my marbles, and enjoy life, and get out and about with little difficulty, and live to be a good old age and not be a burden at the same time... okay, so that's my current list. Believe me, there's more, but let's start here.
My list if probably very similar to others like me. My list maybe a great deal more than those who are not as fortunate as I am, and believe me, I am not rich at all - I live month-to-month just like most people in my circle. I want to change that, too, for the better.
So, recently, I bought a raffle ticket for $100 for a possibility to win one of 2 new cars, out of 3,000 tickets being sold - draw is in August. I hope I win one of these 2 cars! I really need it.
I was asked last week if I could do the work and books for a very small business - I'm not sure if I overpriced it (don't believe I did), but we'll see if it becomes a new client next week.
I just purchased 28 books from a charity store, for $28 - all classics to read and keep on my book shelves that I am putting up in my office (one up, 2 more to go)! I'm so excited. A few months ago I wanted to join an online book club while reading Frankenstein by Mary Shelley but I found it difficult to keep up with work and my own personal life goings on, that I didn't get far with it at all. Then I decided to download a copy of the book, found one and find it difficult to read on my phone and my Amazon Fire, so I gave that up, as well, with the hopes to get back to it someday. And on the bookshelves, I found the book! Of course, I purchased it. It was only $1.00 and it's called Of Human Bondage. I can't wait to read the book in bed - it will be my next book to read once I finish the one I'm currently reading (and just started). While I was in line to pay for my load of books, an older lady started asking me if I had read Somerset Maugham - which I had not heard of him. She said one of his books was on the book shelf and suggested that I should buy it and read it. She said she lives in England and has all of his books and loves them, and that she looked him up and found out some interesting things about him and that I should read the book and then do the same - look him up and find out a bit about his life. I said I would. She said his books have become movies, and that she hopes (and believes) I will enjoy his books. What a really random and pleasant conversation.
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| Of Human Bondage book by W. Somerset Maugham & Frankenstein book by Mary Shelley |
It's true - you have to live like you really want, and put it out there what you want, in order to achieve your goals. Everything I want to do, I consider a goal, no matter how small. Each day, each moment, I have to live for the things I really want, and work towards them, and think of them, and talk about them, and put them out in the universe so they can come to me. It's not that easy, I know, but it's the truth, that I do get things I wish for, in time, and I have experienced this wonderment many times, and hope to continue to do so. Which is why I'm putting it out there.
Today I had a facial and booked another one in 5 week's time. This makes me happy - I'll give up some things for more satisfying things, like having a facial a few times a year. I was told my face was looking great and not dry at all, and she couldn't find any problems or pimples to address, and that made me happy to hear - I'll be 50 next year so it makes me feel good. LOL She said whatever I was doing, to keep doing... hmmm that's more luck than anything but may have something to do with all the water I drink daily. Who knows?
So, with all this, I'm saying that random, unexpected things come into my life to make my goals, wishes, dreams and wants come true, by me stumbling upon them - kind of being in the right place at the right time, so to speak. I find these happenings so fascinating.
Sunday Facial
Today I had a 10:00am facial at La Serena Spa at The Reefs Hotel (Bermuda) and it was a gorgeous day outside. My facial was so relaxing - I enjoyed every single minute of it. Then I had a neck warmer put on while I sat in this room in the picture sipping on some water. I felt very dizzy when I got up from the facial (seems to be normal to feel this way afterwards) and spent 20 minutes relaxing in the chair, looking out at the view, sipping on a glass of lemon water and while my neck was getting even extra attention of warmth and my senses taking in the aromatic scent of the neck warmer - truly relaxing and lovely. I should sleep well tonight, regardless!After the facial I had to go to work but that was okay - I was in a very good mood. I worked about 4.5 hrs and then picked up take-out Chinese for dinner - haven't had take-out in a while so that was good as well.
I'm now home and will do some work for 3 clients now for about another 2 hours, then I'll call it a day. My dogs are laying down in the office with me. My finches are quiet in their cage, the TV is on and it's "Christmas in July" on the Hallmark channel until July 14th so I'm enjoying the shows when I can catch them (they play in the background while I do my work or chores in the house). I prefer horror and mystery, but these shows are actually doing my soul some good. Peaceful LOL. My siamese fighting fish is settled in his bowl - my mom always liked pets and liked having a fish, so I bought a blue one a few months ago and it's on top of my desk where I can enjoy him every day, sort of for mom - she passed a year ago May but I still think of her every day and do things that I know she would have enjoyed if she was still here with me. I miss my mom greatly and am doing my best to remember all the good times we had together. It's hard with Mom no longer in my life, as she was my best friend and love of my life (besides my dad, who passed when I was 20, and my son and Chris). Boy, do I miss my mom and love her dearly.
I cannot wait to crawl into bed soon and enjoy a wonderful night's sleep, that I know I will. xo
Saturday 7 July 2018
Being Happy With Oneself
It's been a very long time since I posted. I enjoy many hobbies and one of them is blogging, but have found my time extremely limited to do a lot of things I enjoy most, so I endeavour to change this slightly so I can do a little more of what I enjoy in my life.
My mind arrived, a couple months ago, at the conclusion that I have found real happiness in my life. Happiness doesn't mean grinning and always being outwardly 'happy'. It doesn't mean everything in my life is good. What it really means is that I am content with my recent choices and decisions enough that I smile at good memories and thoughts I have through the day, I smile every night when I am in bed, and every morning that I wake.
It is also that I enjoy simple things (can only afford simple things) but I enjoy them immensely. In admitting this, I will do all I can to be an inspiration to anyone who I can help and I will try harder and improving my life so that I may increase my income.
The reason for being so happy, is because I know I cannot change my financial status too quickly (although I will try harder)... I cannot change other people's actions or mindsets (I must accept them as they are)... I cannot grow as a person, unless I help or be kind to others, whenever I can, as much as I can, and keep my eyes open to opportunity.
Having said this, trying to keep this in a nutshell, because I can write many books on this subject and my life, I am affirming that I am happy and I'm so pleased that I am.
In life, many people have difficulties, upsets, disasters, troubles, unpleasant or hard lives. Many people struggle for so many reasons, and beyond their control. Many people are held back for so many reasons, and unfairness is one of those reasons. Many people are under- or uneducated, or not able to have the advantage of a good education. Many people are starving, homeless, living in disaster areas, living lives that are just full of wrong decisions, or with the wrong people, or are poor, unhealthy, or unhappy.
These thoughts make me want to be a better person. I cannot help all those in need in this world (I really wish I could) but I can make my life happier by making good decisions. My choices affect my life and what direction I take next.
I cannot help all the starving people, but I can make sure when I buy food and eat meals, that I do not waste any of it and enjoy every mouthful. I will make sure I can give whatever I can, when I can, to help other people.
I cannot help all the poor people, but I can make sure I enjoy all the free offerings that can entertain me, help me when I need it or I can use. I will never take more of anything than I need. I will do my best to share what I can with others or let someone else whom needs it more than me, have it.
I cannot help people who live in disaster areas, but I will do my best to live as safely and securely as possible.
I cannot bring people out of poverty, but I can share all I can, give as much as I can, and spend what I have as wisely as I can. I do not want to live in abundance, or be wasteful. I want to live as simply and comfortably as I can. Where I live and how much money I earn is not my fault, it's a blessing, and I will cherish these things and make sure I appreciate all of it. I never want to be wasteful, ever.
So, what I'm trying to get to, here, is that I AM happy with myself, my current choices and what I have. My life is far from perfect, but I am content. I am luck to have more privileges than some. I have pets that I take care of and get immense enjoyment from - loves, hugs and kisses, snuggles and attention. I have a family living with me - my son and my common law husband. It's not always easy between all our different personalities, needs, wants and schedules, but I love having them living with me and enjoy our 'good' and 'fun loving' moments always. There's nothing like having loved ones near.
I work - yes, I have good clients and do the best job I can daily to earn my income. I like my work and I help my clients day to day, which gives me great satisfaction.
I have a roof over my head (bank owns the house until it's paid off), electricity, food, water, basic furniture, a basic wardrobe, food, a computer, a car (need a new one), and a nice lawn. I live in a good neighbourhood and I am very thankful for all of these things. These are all basic needs which I have, and it's more than some people have, so I appreciate it all.
These things I've mentioned, are all what make me happy. My pets snuggling with me in bed make me smile. When I read a book in bed, it makes me smile. Having a glass of water at bedtime makes me smile. It makes me smile that I sleep on a mattress (the most important and luxurious feature). It makes me smile that I am comfortable and warm, not cold and not hot. It makes me smile that I can take a shower each day.
When I go to sleep, I smile. I smile for all that happened that day, all that I accomplished, all my beautiful memories and of those I could help, and all that I have.
When I wake, I smile. I smile that I woke up! I smile that I'm still snuggling with my pets in my bed. I smile for the sun shining in my window. I smile to be able to start a new day, full of new possibilities and opportunity.
I smile because I do have a few friends with whom I trust and am happy to have them in my life. I smile also, because life could be so much harder or worse (and any given day can be so) but I'm really thankful for all that I am, and have, and that I want to always appreciate and be grateful.
My life could be simplified more, and I can always try to be even less wasteful. There is always room for improvement, but I am happy with myself. I feel unless you are happy with yourself, then you cannot truly be a happy person. I don't ever feel alone when I am on my own, because I am happy with who I am and I always find a way to keep myself content, or think of good past memories, or what the future may hold for me, of opportunity, of hope and dreams and goals and wishes! LOL
It's all doable for me, which I am lucky and thankful for because I believe those who work hard at doing, being or having what they want, obtain it within reason or even better than dreamed, but one has to work towards what they want to achieve. Self satisfaction and hard work, dedication and being a good person, all assist in obtaining what is desired.
I know I won't be a pilot, or own a shipping company, or own an island, but these things are not what I am striving for. What I am striving for, I will work hard towards achieving. I have accomplished a lot, so far, of what I've wanted, and most of it was not given to me. It feels good each time that I am able to move one step closer to fulfilling what I desire, want or need.
With this realization that I am very happy, begins a new chapter in my life and I look forward to each and every day.
My mind arrived, a couple months ago, at the conclusion that I have found real happiness in my life. Happiness doesn't mean grinning and always being outwardly 'happy'. It doesn't mean everything in my life is good. What it really means is that I am content with my recent choices and decisions enough that I smile at good memories and thoughts I have through the day, I smile every night when I am in bed, and every morning that I wake.
It is also that I enjoy simple things (can only afford simple things) but I enjoy them immensely. In admitting this, I will do all I can to be an inspiration to anyone who I can help and I will try harder and improving my life so that I may increase my income.
The reason for being so happy, is because I know I cannot change my financial status too quickly (although I will try harder)... I cannot change other people's actions or mindsets (I must accept them as they are)... I cannot grow as a person, unless I help or be kind to others, whenever I can, as much as I can, and keep my eyes open to opportunity.
Having said this, trying to keep this in a nutshell, because I can write many books on this subject and my life, I am affirming that I am happy and I'm so pleased that I am.
In life, many people have difficulties, upsets, disasters, troubles, unpleasant or hard lives. Many people struggle for so many reasons, and beyond their control. Many people are held back for so many reasons, and unfairness is one of those reasons. Many people are under- or uneducated, or not able to have the advantage of a good education. Many people are starving, homeless, living in disaster areas, living lives that are just full of wrong decisions, or with the wrong people, or are poor, unhealthy, or unhappy.
These thoughts make me want to be a better person. I cannot help all those in need in this world (I really wish I could) but I can make my life happier by making good decisions. My choices affect my life and what direction I take next.
I cannot help all the starving people, but I can make sure when I buy food and eat meals, that I do not waste any of it and enjoy every mouthful. I will make sure I can give whatever I can, when I can, to help other people.
I cannot help all the poor people, but I can make sure I enjoy all the free offerings that can entertain me, help me when I need it or I can use. I will never take more of anything than I need. I will do my best to share what I can with others or let someone else whom needs it more than me, have it.
I cannot help people who live in disaster areas, but I will do my best to live as safely and securely as possible.
I cannot bring people out of poverty, but I can share all I can, give as much as I can, and spend what I have as wisely as I can. I do not want to live in abundance, or be wasteful. I want to live as simply and comfortably as I can. Where I live and how much money I earn is not my fault, it's a blessing, and I will cherish these things and make sure I appreciate all of it. I never want to be wasteful, ever.
So, what I'm trying to get to, here, is that I AM happy with myself, my current choices and what I have. My life is far from perfect, but I am content. I am luck to have more privileges than some. I have pets that I take care of and get immense enjoyment from - loves, hugs and kisses, snuggles and attention. I have a family living with me - my son and my common law husband. It's not always easy between all our different personalities, needs, wants and schedules, but I love having them living with me and enjoy our 'good' and 'fun loving' moments always. There's nothing like having loved ones near.
I work - yes, I have good clients and do the best job I can daily to earn my income. I like my work and I help my clients day to day, which gives me great satisfaction.
I have a roof over my head (bank owns the house until it's paid off), electricity, food, water, basic furniture, a basic wardrobe, food, a computer, a car (need a new one), and a nice lawn. I live in a good neighbourhood and I am very thankful for all of these things. These are all basic needs which I have, and it's more than some people have, so I appreciate it all.
These things I've mentioned, are all what make me happy. My pets snuggling with me in bed make me smile. When I read a book in bed, it makes me smile. Having a glass of water at bedtime makes me smile. It makes me smile that I sleep on a mattress (the most important and luxurious feature). It makes me smile that I am comfortable and warm, not cold and not hot. It makes me smile that I can take a shower each day.
When I go to sleep, I smile. I smile for all that happened that day, all that I accomplished, all my beautiful memories and of those I could help, and all that I have.
When I wake, I smile. I smile that I woke up! I smile that I'm still snuggling with my pets in my bed. I smile for the sun shining in my window. I smile to be able to start a new day, full of new possibilities and opportunity.
I smile because I do have a few friends with whom I trust and am happy to have them in my life. I smile also, because life could be so much harder or worse (and any given day can be so) but I'm really thankful for all that I am, and have, and that I want to always appreciate and be grateful.
My life could be simplified more, and I can always try to be even less wasteful. There is always room for improvement, but I am happy with myself. I feel unless you are happy with yourself, then you cannot truly be a happy person. I don't ever feel alone when I am on my own, because I am happy with who I am and I always find a way to keep myself content, or think of good past memories, or what the future may hold for me, of opportunity, of hope and dreams and goals and wishes! LOL
It's all doable for me, which I am lucky and thankful for because I believe those who work hard at doing, being or having what they want, obtain it within reason or even better than dreamed, but one has to work towards what they want to achieve. Self satisfaction and hard work, dedication and being a good person, all assist in obtaining what is desired.
I know I won't be a pilot, or own a shipping company, or own an island, but these things are not what I am striving for. What I am striving for, I will work hard towards achieving. I have accomplished a lot, so far, of what I've wanted, and most of it was not given to me. It feels good each time that I am able to move one step closer to fulfilling what I desire, want or need.
With this realization that I am very happy, begins a new chapter in my life and I look forward to each and every day.
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